Little Birdie?

For some reason

the "happy-like-a-little-birdie" had been a popular signature of mine

never did i realize what that might mean..

until these days

maybe that indicated the very famous sayings from men

except that i'm a woman

Cant help missing my "jude law"

(the taller, bigger, younger version of "the jude law")

ever since the second i saw a "similar side view" outside the library

i thought it's just some "seconds"

until i found myself looking at some "promise rings"

then i realize it wasnt just "seconds"

coz i'm thinking of another man now

did i mention i did receive a "paired" present this yr

and havent worn that once?

it was a pair of "similarly matched" bangles

it's pretty, just disappointing that they werent rings

i dont like wearing bangles

it's just not so much my style, though i did bought some

but they are all still new

i secretly hoped that he would just buy me a promise ring

so it can fully replace the one i received not long ago

which i liked so much

and cant help from time to time thinking about them

i'm not sure what should i do

i feel like i've met two "mr. possibly-right" 

and i cant shake them off my head

even though i forced myself from keeping contact 

but whenever "something doesnt feel right"

they pop up and remind me how "everything felt so right"

and they probably would still feel very right

jan,

if u see this

keep in mind u are the only one who knows about it

and......... i'm afraid i'm doing something i would regret.....

should i reply Mr. lawyer?....

at least... tell him not to call/msg/write anymore?

Lottery

Had been famous for being extremely lucky

This had been proved to myself too during last christmas holiday

In the short of two weeks time

Shopping malls are having all kinds of lucky draws

And within all the times where me & my friends or family did some shoppings

8 out of probably 9/10 draws I did

ended up with some kind of a "big" prize.

As in total

I've won two "first prize" 

one "second prize"

one "third prize"

and other countless prizes

the worst one i had

was a third to last prize

Everyone asks

Why didnt I go to buy lottery

maybe, with this kind of luck

I would win some big grant!

To be honest

instead of hoping to win

i'm more scared that i would actually win

what if that means spending 90% of the luck of my life

just once, just for some big money, just during the very young stage of my life

I like being lucky, 

more importantly, feeling lucky.

like the little "no-red-light" walk in cold winters day

like the "no-train-waiting" commute time on slept-in mornings

like the "always-big-and-warm" strangers' hand when i needed help

a candy a day lights up our days

tons of candies a day ends up with broken teeth tomorrow

thats where i got my little lottery talk

---- one day after eating few bags of candies, elementary sch.

A Fresh start

had a famous enough blog

had enough pics over there

had enough everyday stories

had enough biboi's giggles 

should have a fresh start over here

not a shadow of the "famous blog"

but a simple me only blog.

for random thoughts, 

for random show offs

for random shouts.